Updates on life

So.. About my "Books!!" post.. I did not go to the book exhibition which is really sad.. But I might go to some book exhibitions on CNY!! I might, well only might. And.. things have been really rough for me for the past few days.. I prgd & had nervous mental breakdowns because of those words man those words. Her words made me feel like crap. Loads of crap. But parts of it were right. Which is why it has affected me, a lot. She asked me to fix her relationship with her best friend. And I do know how to. Which is letting time pass by, but the thing is.. I do not know how to fix my relationship with HER. And if I let time pass by like that to us.. It's just a waste, all of it.. A waste. But Im certain I will think of something. And last night, god if I were awake. My brother, sigh... I wish I could cut his head off.  And my dad, oh my Allah.. What is it with him?! Anyways.. once I turn 14, I promise myself I will make a book blog on blogger and instagram!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hihi.. Im only 13 now sooo... just once I turn 14. Not just that really, I wish to write more.. I have started writing a novel on wattpad but Im having a long-term writers block cus I need to read, do homeworks and revision and stuff. But really it's just all about the schedule..