Updates on life #2

So.. It's March already. How time flies so fast. It felt like only 5 weeks has passed by but it's been 2 months already. Wow, when I was younger I felt like time moves too slow but now I feel it moving so fast.. Cus you know.. You're busy with things. So yesterday I watched this Japanese drama called Dragon Zakura. It was so so fascinating and helpful. It makes me wanna study more. I shall need to start studying properly from now on, if I really want to make my dreams come true. Things are.. fine? Better than couple of days ago but still.. Oh and last night I dreamt about Heroes of Olympus which is so cool and I'm glad she has emerged out of my dreams. What a distraction.. I just wish I was never close to her.. What if I didn't raise up my hand that time when she asked my whole class about who wants to become her mentee? I would never have became close to her and this wouldn't be a distraction and she wouldn't drive me crazy AND she wouldn't give me pain. And school is... Fine? Yea you could say that.. But other than that it's just fine.

Crazy

So about my previous post is me telling you people about a girl who I am crazy about.. Yeah that girl. I've been dreaming about her 5 nights in a row and it's been 22 days since I last talked to her. The thing is she's occupying my mind 24/7. I miss her so much. I wish things could be the way they used to be, but it can't.

Sexuality

I'm always questioning my sexuality. Am I bisexual? Lesbian? Straight? Yeah being a lesbian is haram but as long as you don't have a relationship with another girl right? Sigh.. It's so confusing. I AM attracted to a girl. Very very very attracted to her and she drives me crazy. But am I SEXUALLY attracted to her? Romanticly interested in her? Well,  I've never thought of any romantic or dirty stuff about me and her.. But she drives me so crazy and Ive never been so crazy about a girl before.. Even Demi & 5H..  not as crazy about this girl. She drives me so crazy. I can't even think about one thing about her that doesn't drive me crazy. But at the same time I'm attracted to guys too.. So it's either Im bisexual or straight...? I don't know sigh. So you see,  your own sexuality can be so confusing

ESOK SEKOLAH

Shiz man tomorrow back to school aka hell again ha ha ha ha ha ha ha SHIZ TOO MUCH SHIZ

Gwyneth Paltrow and Chris Martin

I like that even though their marriage didn't lasted, their connection lasted. They have this strong relationship, the relationship WAS romantic but now maybe both platonic and romantic.. Idk.. It's just amazing how Chris picked Gwyneth up when she was dying of grief.. And maybe they'll get back together? PLEASE YAS OH MY GOD and man Coldplay working on their last album???? That is just so heart-shattering to hear ugh.. The last album better be good and Coldplay NEEDS TO DO A WORLD TOUR. Come to Malaysia. PLS YAS YAS YAS YES. I have to meet them. I have to go to their concert and they have to come to Malaysia.

FORGOT MY OWN IPHONE PASSCODE?!

Well, this should be interesting isnt it? I am so frustrated right now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I cant access my own phone because I forgot my passcode. A simple 4 digit passcode. The reason why I forgot my own passcode is because I was too careless, sigh. Okay so firstly what happened was that my sister took my phone and she managed to access my phone by just guessing the passcode, so I changed it but I changed it and forgot what it was. So I tried and tried and tried until the 6th time when it started saying disabled for 1 minute and I tried again again but I have to wait. AND FOR NOW I HAVE TO WAIT ANOTHER FUCKING 1 hour to guess my passcode, just for one time. And if I dont, I will have to wait another stupid hour. Sigh.. I am not going to restore my phone, I rather wait and guess until I get my passcode right because I dont wanna wipe off my iphone clean. So... at the moment I will be using my laptop a lot I guess. And I will be guessing my passcodes until I get to access. AND I AM GONNAAAA LEARN HOW TO PROGRAM AKA HACK, you know just in case I dont manage to guess my passcode. My father had a PhD in Computer Science so I shall ask him to teach me how to program because I wanna know how to learn how to program too hehe. When I get older, I can work for people and hack stuff for them. It may not be easy but I will try. And if I dont manage to guess my own iphone passcode then I will ask my father to crack the passcode for me then.

"Into the Woods" & "Jupiter Ascending'

Okay so.. these are my reviews for the movies mentioned in the title.

Into the Woods: SO MUCH BETTER THAN I EXPECTED. 5/5 stars. The Disney movies keeps on getting better and better. I really hated the Prince who married Cinderella, what a cocky jerk!! The Witch.. I expected her to be more evil.. But I guess she WAS evil because she had her own reasons... The Baker, Cinderella, The Witch, The Baker's Wife, Little Red Riding Hood, Jack and his mom... The characters were the ones that made me enjoyed the movie very much. IN FACT I LOVED THE MOVIE. And the humor in this movie.. EXCELLENT. The character development... World building.. Everything wonderfully done. THE PART WHERE THE NARRATOR SAID "and they all lived happily ever af-" AND THEN HE GETS INTERRUPTED BY A GIANT STOMPING HER FEET ON THE GROUND IN THE WOODS.. Ah that part was so goddamn funny djfakjfhkadkj but also really deeppppp. SO JUST OVERALL I LOVED AND ENJOYED THE MOVIEEEE. I also expected Johnny Depp to get more parts but it's okay, was kinda sad though, but it's alrightttt. LOVED THE MOVIE.

Jupiter Ascending: Disappointment AND satisfaction, too. I had high expectations for this one but it did not reach my expectations. BECAUSE I DONT REALLY GET HOW JUPITER WAS CALM WHEN SHE WENT THROUGH her discoveries of aliens?? Yeah I mean I know she is one, but she doesnt know that she is one so how could she have been calm when she found out. And Jupiter falling in love with the hot hunk who saved her life when it's just the hot hunk's responsibility is too predictable. Channing Tatum?? Kinda meh about his acting.. Mila Kunis was fine but Channing Tatum? Not that good. BUT DOUGLAS BOOTH AND EDDIE REDMAYNE, they both played their characters very well. I was really shock at first to hear Eddie talking like that..But I was also excited. I really liked the Sci-Fi in this movie. But some parts were too Sci-Fi.. I AM A HUGEEE SCI-FI FAN BUT SOME PARTS WERE TOO SCI-FI. Overvall, the movie was entertaining, satisfying but it didnt reached the high expectations that I had for it. So 3/5 stars!

Updates on life

So.. About my "Books!!" post.. I did not go to the book exhibition which is really sad.. But I might go to some book exhibitions on CNY!! I might, well only might. And.. things have been really rough for me for the past few days.. I prgd & had nervous mental breakdowns because of those words man those words. Her words made me feel like crap. Loads of crap. But parts of it were right. Which is why it has affected me, a lot. She asked me to fix her relationship with her best friend. And I do know how to. Which is letting time pass by, but the thing is.. I do not know how to fix my relationship with HER. And if I let time pass by like that to us.. It's just a waste, all of it.. A waste. But Im certain I will think of something. And last night, god if I were awake. My brother, sigh... I wish I could cut his head off.  And my dad, oh my Allah.. What is it with him?! Anyways.. once I turn 14, I promise myself I will make a book blog on blogger and instagram!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hihi.. Im only 13 now sooo... just once I turn 14. Not just that really, I wish to write more.. I have started writing a novel on wattpad but Im having a long-term writers block cus I need to read, do homeworks and revision and stuff. But really it's just all about the schedule..

Tom Hiddleston.

TOM HIDDLESTON. HE IS A MAN THAT NO ONE CAN RESIST OR IS IMMUNE TO. EVEN IF YOURE A HETEROSEXUAL MALE. OH MY GOD, ITS NOT HIS LOOKS, ITS HIS CHARMS. OH MY GOD I THINK I WILL NEVER BE ABLE TO RESIST HIM. UGH SKDM"SL:D"SLDJLSJDSKJD. ITS EEVRYTHING ABOUT HIM. IVE BEEN OBSESSED WITH HIM SINCE 2013 BUT I STILL CNAT GET HIM OFF MY MIND.

Books!!!

Im so excited for tomorrow cus BIG BAD WOLF FIRE SALE!!!! BOOKS BOOKS BOOKS.

What oh ok

Don't you just ever want to express things somewhere at the right time and right place but when you get the chance to you can't express it? Yeah that's what is happening to me. I think I am totally going to blog for the rest of my life and some of you might read this blog post.. Idk. But I guess I am already expressing my feelings. So all I guess all this are absurd and full of nonsense, unless if you understand how I feel. I want to let everything out. Everything. But if I do at a short period of time I will be this massive bomb that is about to explode. I am just going to say that... I will blog as long as I live. But it's not like my world is just going to be on my blog. My world is huge. The world is huge. I will share and try to relate. My blog will be kind of like my journal and diary. Just... my LIFE journal and diary.. if that makes any sense. But I will also make a journal once my best friend, Izzah buys me one on my 14th bday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Guess who's back?

I AM BACKKKKKKKK WOOHOOOHOHOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Lol no one reads my blog meh so Im talkin to myself only la waaa