Sajak pertama yang telah aku tulis. (16/04/2015) Jangan telan.

Senyuman diletak atas wajah
Kerana tak mau yang lain berasa kau
dalam keadaan payah,
Segala kesakitan dikau telan
Kerana tak mau yang lain membuat spekulasi
bahawa kau kemurungan.

Oh, wahai manusia!
Adakah engkau sedar?
Berlaku cahaya bersinar
Berlalu awan mendung
Perjuangan ini kau teruskan
Biarpun tenagamu kehabisan.

Rohmu di suatu tempat yang gelap
Akan dikau mekar dan lenyap
Gundah
Bila kau mau ia pindah?
Keruntuhanmu disebabkan ralat
yang hanya berasal dari ayat.

Oh, wahai pejuang!
Adakah engkau sedar?
Kau mau menyelamatkan yang lain
meskipun kau tak mampu menyelamatkan diri
Sedikit-sedikit, lama-lama menjadi bukit
Suatu hari jasadmu akan meletup kerana terlalu pahit

Kini, jangan dikau telan
Kini, jangan dikau sembunyikan
Teruslah berjalan
Ya, aku setuju,
Ada mereka yang terlalu 'sibuk' dengan urusan diri
Akan tetapi ada mereka yang benar-benar peduli

Justeru,
Jangan kau telan.
Jangan telan.
Jangan.

Best websites to watch Asian(Korean, Japanese, Taiwanese..) dramas & other

For those who live in Malaysia, here are some websites that I recommend to watch Asian dramas with English subtitles

I think Korea is the country in Asia that really exposes their dramas internationally, more than Japan, Taiwan and China so...

Best website to watch mostly Korean dramas:

-myasiantv.com/ 

  (really has good HD quality videos)

On mobile phones or tablets:

-Viki

Best website to watch all Kor, Jap, Tai, Ch dramas:

-gooddrama.net/ (this website doesn't have HD quality videos for all dramas, popular dramas yes, but overall the quality of videos are fine and the subtitles are good)

As for apps for mobile phones or tablets, I couldn't find any.

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Best website to keep (kinda) up to date with Japanese dramas:

-jdorama.com/

(it has all the synopsis and facts)

Best website to keep up to date with Korean dramas:

-dramafever.com/

^Of course right?

Some other websites to watch:

-asianrice.tv/

^this website doesn't have all the recent dramas but the quality of videos are fine

-YOUTUBE!! obviously.

~there are some dramas that a few youtube users upload so feel free to watch there

Review on Liar Game (Japanese drama)

So this is the synopsis:

At the show, a scrupulously honest college student named Nao Kanzaki - receives a package containing 100 million yen (about 1 million dollars) and a note that she is now a contestant in the Liar Game Tournament. In this fictional tournament, contestants are encouraged to cheat and lie to obtain other contestants' money, with the losing ones forced to bear a debt proportional to their losses. When Nao's first opponent - a trusted former teacher - steals her money, she seeks assistance from a con man named Shinichi Akiyama. Though they manage to defeat him, Nao and Akiyama decide to buy out his debt and advance through different rounds of the Liar Game Tournament against merciless contestants, while at the same time attempting to free their opponents from debt and to defeat the Liar Game organization from within.

I am giving this drama 5/5 stars. It was very very mindblown. There were times where I was confused a lot. So many tricks and deceiving. This drama has taught me a lot of things so I cannot wait to watch the second season. Kanzaki Nao, I think, has made such an impact on me, same goes to this drama. It's okay to believe in people because no matter how evil they are, how broken they are, if you manage to touch their heart and show them hope, they will believe in you. There is bad in the world but at the same time there is good and light. It has really touch my heart and made me more interested in psychology.

Besides that, oh my god Matsuda Shota was so so damn hot I just couldn't handle it. I feel like Akiyama fell in love with Kanzaki Nao even though in the manga and j drama, it didn't really show the romance but I know he did fell for her and I know they will end up together though it doesn't show that in the series. He was such a broken person but Kanzaki Nao brought hope for him and I just ship them so so so muchchchchhcchh. 

Overall, it was such an amazing drama. I can't wait to watch the second season.

Sajak 24/4/15

Sebuah sajak yang ditulis sehari sebelum sambutan hari lahir ayahanda.

Oh papa!

Dulu aku benci!

Bergenang air mataku melihat engkau menusuk hati mamaku

Adakah engkau tak dengar aku luahkan semuanya pabila waktu senja tiba

Oh, aku lupa!

Cubit paha kanan, paha kiri sakit juga

Engkau tiada, engkau pergi, engkau tinggalkan kami tatkala

kami tenggelam dalam kegundahan!

Meranap mamaku bersayu

Terguris hatiku melihat mamaku macam tu

Tergamak engkau biar mamaku macam tu

Alangkah baiknya jika engkau minta ampun dengan mamaku

Namun begitu

Aku sedar

Hanya engkau yang aku dapat panggil ayah

Engkau yang mampu tetap membantuku

Emosiku yang sebelum ni berlingkar kini berpancar

Secocok dengan langit yang sekian lama menjadi biru

Akhirnya aku dapat keluh dengan lega

Kerna aku sedar engkau tak seperti ayah lain

Yang tak berhati perut kerna meninggalkan keluarga selama-lamanya

Yang sepatutnya dipandang hina kerna menjual anak

Yang lebih kejam kerna menggunakan keganasan atas isteri dan

Darah daging sendiri

Alhamdulilah

Terima kasih ayahanda

Engkau masih sanggup menanggung beban ni walaupun

sedikit sahaja jikalau mau bandingkan dengan bonda

Engkau masih berada di sini

Terima kasih ayahanda

Atas segalanya yang kau telah berikan

Sungguhpun aku tak maafkan

Bumi mana yang tiada hujan

Jadi, aku akan terima

Di sini

Inginku minta maaf jika pernah keterlaluan

Renunglah luar jendela

Dan perhatikan bintang itu

Selamat hari lahir, dady!

Updates on life #4

Exam is over!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

YAS YAS YAS YAS finally exams are over and Im enjoying my freedom a lot right now!!!!!!!!!!! I think that I did my best so hopefully the results will come alright InsyaAllah. Maths was the easiest I guess huhuhu. The hardest has got to be KH. Damn damn KH. My KH teacher asked us to read Chapter 1 and Chapter 2 ONLY for form 1 but the questions damnnnn! They had questions of other chapters ugh... AND we're in form 2 not form 1.. so why were there so many questions of form 1???? I don't get it sigh. Plus, she expects us to all get As for KH. What the hell?

Ok other than exams I guess things are pretty much alright. Izzah and me... Hm, I guess we're fine, but we're definitely not the same as before and I feel like we have drifted apart a lot and I feel like she is only half-heartedly being friends with me. Same goes to Nadya. I don't know why, it's just that I have that feeling. OH TOMORROW IS IU DAY! I don't know whether I should wear jubah to IU day . I want to because I don't want to be casual, neither do I want to go there dressing all fancy. So I thought jubah was perfect, just as uztazah had recommended to my whole class if we wanted to go to IU day. Hahahaha. Of course right? It's an uztazah.

Another thing is I don't know whether I should really restart. By what I mean restart is changing schools. I want to but I feel like I don't want to. I promised my friends that I would not change school if those 5 girls really try to block me from transferring.

So that's all for this update. :)

Japanese&Mandarin

So I reallyreally want to learn Japanese and continue learning Mandarin.. I want to study in Japan sooo yea in order for that 我必须好好与努力的学日本语! (huhu I've been studying mandarin, yea as a third language, since I was 7 but then I stopped last year so it may be broken mandarin) and do well in my studies!!

Book blogging?

Tah lah.. Not sure when but I certainly will.. And I broke my own promise towards myself about creating a book blog. It's because I'm so busy doing other thingsssss!!! Now I really have to learn to not make promises that I'm uncertain that I can keep.

Updates on life #3

So it's May 7th already. May 7th. Cammy's bday. Next week exam. Things have been going alright for me I guess. Though it's not so great either. Izzah,my other best friend fought with me 2 weeks ago right on my birthday, April 16. And we may have alr reconciled but she is still shy or scared to talk to me..? Today I told my friends I will be and I wanna transfer but she didn't even try to um approach me or anything like that. So should I transfer? And I finally realized how annoying I am. Some people do hate me because I'm annoying but idk why.. I've never really hated anyone except this girl in my old school.. Amanda, because she was ALWAYS showing off and making me feel small. Which was when I was like 11-12? Now I don't hate her anymore though. So I've never really hated anyone just because they're annoying.. yeah sometimes they piss me off but I have never really hated anyone else.. About IU day... nak pergi tak? Or not. Hmmm. Hard choice. Meh.