Book blogging?

Tah lah.. Not sure when but I certainly will.. And I broke my own promise towards myself about creating a book blog. It's because I'm so busy doing other thingsssss!!! Now I really have to learn to not make promises that I'm uncertain that I can keep.

Updates on life #3

So it's May 7th already. May 7th. Cammy's bday. Next week exam. Things have been going alright for me I guess. Though it's not so great either. Izzah,my other best friend fought with me 2 weeks ago right on my birthday, April 16. And we may have alr reconciled but she is still shy or scared to talk to me..? Today I told my friends I will be and I wanna transfer but she didn't even try to um approach me or anything like that. So should I transfer? And I finally realized how annoying I am. Some people do hate me because I'm annoying but idk why.. I've never really hated anyone except this girl in my old school.. Amanda, because she was ALWAYS showing off and making me feel small. Which was when I was like 11-12? Now I don't hate her anymore though. So I've never really hated anyone just because they're annoying.. yeah sometimes they piss me off but I have never really hated anyone else.. About IU day... nak pergi tak? Or not. Hmmm. Hard choice. Meh.

Updates on life #2

So.. It's March already. How time flies so fast. It felt like only 5 weeks has passed by but it's been 2 months already. Wow, when I was younger I felt like time moves too slow but now I feel it moving so fast.. Cus you know.. You're busy with things. So yesterday I watched this Japanese drama called Dragon Zakura. It was so so fascinating and helpful. It makes me wanna study more. I shall need to start studying properly from now on, if I really want to make my dreams come true. Things are.. fine? Better than couple of days ago but still.. Oh and last night I dreamt about Heroes of Olympus which is so cool and I'm glad she has emerged out of my dreams. What a distraction.. I just wish I was never close to her.. What if I didn't raise up my hand that time when she asked my whole class about who wants to become her mentee? I would never have became close to her and this wouldn't be a distraction and she wouldn't drive me crazy AND she wouldn't give me pain. And school is... Fine? Yea you could say that.. But other than that it's just fine.

Crazy

So about my previous post is me telling you people about a girl who I am crazy about.. Yeah that girl. I've been dreaming about her 5 nights in a row and it's been 22 days since I last talked to her. The thing is she's occupying my mind 24/7. I miss her so much. I wish things could be the way they used to be, but it can't.

Sexuality

I'm always questioning my sexuality. Am I bisexual? Lesbian? Straight? Yeah being a lesbian is haram but as long as you don't have a relationship with another girl right? Sigh.. It's so confusing. I AM attracted to a girl. Very very very attracted to her and she drives me crazy. But am I SEXUALLY attracted to her? Romanticly interested in her? Well,  I've never thought of any romantic or dirty stuff about me and her.. But she drives me so crazy and Ive never been so crazy about a girl before.. Even Demi & 5H..  not as crazy about this girl. She drives me so crazy. I can't even think about one thing about her that doesn't drive me crazy. But at the same time I'm attracted to guys too.. So it's either Im bisexual or straight...? I don't know sigh. So you see,  your own sexuality can be so confusing

ESOK SEKOLAH

Shiz man tomorrow back to school aka hell again ha ha ha ha ha ha ha SHIZ TOO MUCH SHIZ

Gwyneth Paltrow and Chris Martin

I like that even though their marriage didn't lasted, their connection lasted. They have this strong relationship, the relationship WAS romantic but now maybe both platonic and romantic.. Idk.. It's just amazing how Chris picked Gwyneth up when she was dying of grief.. And maybe they'll get back together? PLEASE YAS OH MY GOD and man Coldplay working on their last album???? That is just so heart-shattering to hear ugh.. The last album better be good and Coldplay NEEDS TO DO A WORLD TOUR. Come to Malaysia. PLS YAS YAS YAS YES. I have to meet them. I have to go to their concert and they have to come to Malaysia.